Graduation Day

Today marks another milestone in my life. I graduated college! Now my bachelor’s is finally mine and I can’t wait to grow old with my crippling debt!

Honestly though, I’m grateful for my parents for helping me out financially and to my friends who encouraged me to attend those dreadful 8 am classes. To my professors who were everything a teacher should be and more, I’ll forever keep in my mind the lessons and advice given to me. I couldn’t have asked for a more supportive group of people.

I don’t know how soon it will be before I find the career of my dreams or if I’ll ever go back to school for another degree, but I do know that today I felt accomplished and I look forward to feeling this way again. More often.

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Girl In A Band

I finished reading Kim Gordon’s autobiography and was left pleasantly surprised by the word’s of  a frontwoman whose band I listened to but really knew nothing about.

Kim Gordon has always been edgy, cool, daring and strong in my opinion. To read about her upbringing and how she came to make music out of her insecurities, her emotions, and her fears was powerful. She describes how she came into her own, the journey it took to figure herself out. From being a popular California girl to feeling lost and rejected by New York’s 80s art scene to fleeing to a quaint suburban home to escape rockdom. How her relationship with her paranoid schizophrenic brother and her absent minded but well meaning father came to mold her future relationships with men, especially her ex-husband Thurston. She goes deep into details about her life with family, friends, fellow musicians and lovers, and she’s painfully honest about the music scene then and now.ZZZ005508-VX

I couldn’t put the book down, every page was better than the one before it. What I loved and admired the most was that the book, the story of her life, was about Sonic Youth all along. How her growing up influenced the type of music she would make, how the things around inspired the lyrics she wrote, about what it was like when your bandmate also happened to be your husband, and what it really felt like to be a frontwoman during an era when rock was controlled and ran by men. To be a girl in a band.

If you’re into rock and roll and its history, you’ll find this book to be a great read. Sonic Youth was around for about 30 years and met and worked with so many prominent music artists from the 70s to the 90s. But if you’re a young woman like I am who is always looking to grow and continuously find yourself not only through your own experiences but by being uplifted through the words and actions of strong women then this book proved to be excellent and motivational.

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My One ‘n Only

I’ve been a brunette my entire life. Born with mouse brown hair, I experimented for a short while with red and purple in high school and started dying my hair raven black when I was 17. Since then black was the only color to grace the hair on my head and I swore I could never see myself with anything else on.

Until last week when I walked up to my hairstylist and demanded we start the process of turning me into a platinum blonde. Years of box dye black means only some of the color was lifted by bleach but if I’m lucky I’ll be having more fun by New Year’s.

Anyone who has gone through the process of bleaching their hair knows it can be very damaging to the scalp and hair follicle. Honestly, it was the entire reason I refused to ever let bleach touch my hair before. My stylist recommended I use One ‘N Only Argan Oil restorative hair mask to keep my hair moisturized and soft to prevent any breakage that might occur. Ever the paranoid, not only did I buy the hair mask but I bought the big bottles of shampoo and conditioner (currently on sale 2 for $30 at Sally’s!) from the brand as well.

My life (and hair) will never be the same. I’ve always had an oily scalp which could really itch and flake depending on the weather, amongst other conditions. Since using the shampoo and conditioner, my scalp has become less oily and the itching and flaking are gone. The restorative mask leaves my hair shiny and extra soft, and everything just smells SO. GOOD.

In about two weeks I’ll be returning to my hair stylist for the second session of bleaching and I’m a bit more confident now that I know my hair won’t be falling out in clumps. To my fellow bleach heads, what are some of your favorite products to use nourish your hair back to health after a session of bleaching?

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After bleaching twice and toning

DIY sea salt spray

As the hot August days roll on, we’re left scrambling to cherish the last days of summer. But you can keep your beach tousled waves with you year round with this incredibly easy DIY sea salt spray!

What You’ll Need

  1. Water
  2. Sea salt
  3. Coconut oil
  4. A spray/mist bottle
  5. Leave-in conditioner or natural oil (optional)

What You Need To Do 

  1. Heat up the water. Not too hot! You don’t want to burn yourself, you just want it warm enough to dissolve the sea salt and coconut oil.
  2. Pour in 2 teaspoons of sea salt. For every 2 teaspoons, add in a tablespoon of coconut oil. I use Himalayan pink sea salt and liquid coconut oil but any sea salt and coconut oil in any form will work just fine.
  3. Pour into a spray or mist bottle.
  4. Sea salt has a drying effect on hair so feel free to add in a few drops of your favorite leave-in conditioner or natural oil if you think the coconut oil isn’t enough to keep our hair moisturized.

Your spray is now ready to be used! Spray on damp or dry hair and scrunch your hair. Putting it up into a twisted bun also helps bring out those waves. Your tan may fade but your beachy locks don’t have to!

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Kat Von D Shade + Light eye contour palette

I’ve never been a fan of eye shadow palettes but I’ve always been a huge fan of the tattoo artist and author, Kat Von D. Already familiarized and in love with her Ink eye liner and Studded Kiss lipsticks I decided to branch out to see what else her makeup line could offer me. When her eye contour palette made its debut, it was love at first. It was the all matte palette that offered a full set of colors I knew I’d put to good use.

The palette is divided into three quads: neutral, cool, and warm. Each quad serves one of three purposes, to define eyes, to lift eyes, and to balance eyes. The names of each individual shadow is listed at the bottom of the palette, a helpful detail. Inside the box the palette comes in, there’s a colored guide that outlines the purpose of the shades in every quad. There’s also step by step instructions as to how to best use the shadowss to achieve the look you want. You can tell there was a lot of thought put into the packaging and it is most definitely appreciated.

The shadow themselves are silky and blend like a dream. No color looks too heavy on the lid and can be built up to your liking. The base color in the cool quad called Lazarus has also proven to be perfect for contouring my face as well. The inside of the palette includes a decent sized mirror so you can take it on the go and have no problem applying your makeup.

I only see positives with this palette and though I can’t say I’m going to start racking up on eye shadow palettes, I’m confident that this particular one will become a staple within my personal makeup collection.

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Day Party Makeup

This is the makeup look I did for the Cam Con welcome20150605894690571 party last month and this photo got a lot of positive feedback so I thought I’d share the products I used for it. This is the look I do when I’ll be attending an event during the day so it’s not as heavy as a night look but it’s a little more glammed up than my everyday makeup.


  • Mountain Rose Herbs tamanu oil
  • Estee Lauder Double Wear Stay All Day foundation
  • Rimmel London Stay Matte pressed powder
  • Anastasia Beverly Hills contour kit
  • Wet n Wild Fergie Centerstage Collection highlight in Hollywood Boulevard
  • L’Oreal Infallible setting spray


  • NYX brow gel in Black
  • Sephora single eyeshadow in Must Have No. 6
  • NYX Above & Beyond full coverage concealer


  • NYX Jumbo Pencil in Milk on waterline and inner corners
  • NYX Eye Shadow Base in White on lid
  • Coastal Scents Warm Palette matte white color on lid
  • MAC Pro Longwear Paint Pot in Quite Natural in crease
  • Coastal Scents Warm Palette light brown color in crease
  • NYX Collection Noir Matte Liquid Liner in Black
  • L’Oreal Telescopic mascara
  • Jordana Best Lash Extreme Volumizing mascara
  • Ardell lashes in Demi Wispies cut in half


  • Rimmel London 1000 Kisses Stay On lip liner in Mauve Shimmer
  • Kat Von D Studded Kiss lipstick in Cathedral

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Exxxotica Chicago 2015

Super excited to say I attended Exxxotica here in Chicago. I got to catch up with fellow cam models I met at Cam Con in Miami, and I brought one of my hometown friends with me so she could catch a glimpse of what it’s like to live in my world. I got a bag full of free stuff and bought some cool toys I intend to use for camming. I even picked up a “Crazy Bitch” tank top from one of the many awesome vendors there.

I rode a dildo handle seesaw, witnessed some BDSM go down, stuck my fingers in some incredibly human-like sex dolls, and got a signed autograph from porn legend Rita Daniels. It was my first of many Exxxotica conventions and though I wasn’t able to sit at the Chaturbate booth due to my newbie status, I hope to be there next year and hopefully meet some of you!

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